I lost $80.

I'm becoming more self aware these days.

https://youtu.be/4U8b9AuEIco?si=fZ1k_alx7nr08yxb

Well it's about trying to repair irreparable damage, emotional isolation, using fantasy or music to cope, obsession with someone unreachable,

The ending though where Miku screams while singing. It makes the song feel less like anger and more like mourning. Yes, I can relate to that because I had ex friends turn against me and I'm trying to fix the damage that was irreparable sadly.. they still haven't forgiven me after some stuff I did at 17.

For some reason I feel alone and ignored.

You all make me sick. Goodbye.

I won $310 at a casino!!

Why did I get an error after posting my journal?

The doctors said I have high cholesterol, so I'm gonna be on a strict diet for a while.

Fuck internet outages.

I'm at the doctor now and I'm feeling very nervous.

Nobody cares about me anymore...

I'm going to a midget rodeo tonight

I'm back from the dead lol

....


My grandma Debbie died today...

My other grandma Debbie is fighting cancer for 6 years and she is at the hospital again because she's not doing well and she is not gonna make it...

I DON'T WANT HER TO DIE!!! WE'VE BEEN SHOPPING AT AN ASIAN MARKET TOGETHER, WE'VE BEEN HAVING ALL SORTS OF ADVENTURES TOGETHER AND WITH MY BABY COUSINS!!!!

Don't be alarmed, I hope she lives another 6 months or maybe a year... who knows...

Fuck it, I wanted to return early. But at least I'm feeling better

I'm starting to simp for Icyclyde because... I don't wanna say he's hot because he can't stand hot weather. But he is sexy though...

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